She Is Water

Just sayin'. But we all do it. We all compare. I don't know about you all but I do. It's something that I am working on. And I don't do it with everything. I really only do it with running. Life is funny that way. Allowing me to really hone in on my area of comparison.  I don't normally compare myself as a teacher, photographer, mother, wife, daughter, friend or any of the titles I carry because they are so personal to me. I am who I am and I am a happy person. Lovin life. It's all good! Not gonna say it doesn't happen once in awhile but for the most part I'm pretty solid on not being too hard on myself. BUT only as a runner. Maybe because this is something I never saw myself doing. I am much more aware of it. Maybe because I know the road ahead. Maybe because I like to play head games with myself? Trust me I'd much rather just think of all the positive things that come along with this challenge. I MEAN I AM GETTING US CLOSER TO A CURE FOR CANCER. ...

The struggle is real. It's really real. It's so real. But it's worth every bit of the challenge. And it's happening. THIS is HAPPENING. #Yikes #OHMYGOSH This is my new teachers room decor. I hope they like it. It's just a small poster, I swear. I have to say, I feel like I could NOT do ANY of the things...  (because sometimes I try to do ALL the things!!) but I couldn't do any of them if I did not have Bri, or our families or, my amazing inspirational friends or if my kids were little babies. I miss those little babies sooooo much. I miss their little baby faces. I miss their little baby chubby hands and legs but time flies way too fast and now I have very independent little people who happen to sleep through the night and sleep late so Mommy can run one million miles. Or start to run one million... There are so many factors that go into training for a marathon. I question myself every day... These are the things I often say... Things like this: ...

www.rundfmc.org/2015/tarabedard It really does. And this is why I am doing what I am doing. I can't thank you enough. For the love and support and encouragement. For the positive energy and just for being there. It means the world. I have a long road ahead but I am ready for the challenge.  I feel like I need to document this journey so I can look back on it and I pray that when I do we are that much closer to finding a cure for cancer. It needs to happen. I have a lot of time to think on my runs. Every run I think of those who have battled this beast. Those who have beat it, those who are still battling and those who have lost their fight. It's heartbreaking thinking about the things that I do. I run faster. I cry. I push myself until I am done because I have seen the battle firsthand with my beautiful family. I will not ever give up on this fight. So many things keep me going but I change my screen saver on my phone often because whatever it is must give m...

This may be the most important thing I’ve ever shared…  I hope you’ll stay with me. I’ve got some really big news!!  6 weeks ago I applied to run the Boston Marathon 2015 for Dana Farber and I’m in! Truth be told, I cried. Then I called my Dad. Then I told a small bunch of people. In that order. I hope you’ll take a few moments to read about why I had to do this. You can click the link below which will bring you to my DFMC page. www.rundfmc.org/2015/tarabedard Cancer changes everything.   It’s does so much more than that but if I could only sum it up in three words, those would be the words I choose. Unfair, doesn’t even begin to describe cancer and what it does to patients and their loved ones. Watching someone battle cancer is one of the most painful things that family and friends can go through. You are left with a feeling of hopelessness beyond anything you’ve ever really experienced. Everyone feels hopeless now and again but Cancer promises to make ...